Social Status

As i was wondering how the people of the world ( Racism and sex distinguishing) are doing to their own clan...

The culture where i have been brought up is male dominant society ..
women don't have freedom to do anything rather stay home take care of the custom kitchen and most of all the household works..

and even the hubbys would like to help he is bound from the social custody...

So is the status of social discrimination of our cultures..

Not only that, the caste system and the improper set up has made it even worse .. the girl may not be allowed to marry lower cast like wise guys are forbidden to take a bride from lower cast.

Even the lovers revolt and get married they are discarded from the society and have to leave the town and build on their own.. the empire where they are happy eternally but the pain and invasion they have to go in front of the society is quite unbearable.

The more you go deep into this shit .. the more you seem to engulfed by this as the quick sand ..

so i decided to float around the world with some peace of mind and taking deep breath to clear out my lungs full of fowl air i had taken in the past.

It seems that the more you try to run the more problems will start to follow up ..

as my fren had inspired and stood by my side .. [strange and true whom i never saw or met] i have decided to live my life ... a life for myself .. my own life and the way i wanted to live.

with this i conclude and will try to regain my strength to face the society and will never run away from problem.

As i was feeling remorse for the past why i was cheated . .. . now i think its all the same everywhere .. i have been in the ME[middle east] and even here it seems it is more worse than my place .. so one has to live the life with the social bound and boundaries one cannot cross.. but one can try to boarden the boundary and make a good space for oneself.

This fren of mine has made it real clear that the more you struggle to get out of the quick sand the more you are sucked in... afloat and stay still with making yourself comfortable and understanding ... which in turn will you be able to get the social acceptance.... huh .

So tough to understand the human mind .. why they do this to their own clan...

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Amidst of all this i am beginning to regain the strength to make myself with the situation and part of world where i am ...he he

The rise of dawn

After long hours of darkness in my life , a sprout came up to make my day with a bright red sun in the horizon .. i thought of being once again in the new world or should i say i was reborn .. but alas .. my optimistic thinking of getting better every moment in the near future is driving me with a vital energy to live for the betterment of the world ..i could do something better for a smallest animal of the world .. i would think that i was the luckiest one to live the life to the fullest...

But sad to put it , it was not the dawn, but the sun was setting once again in my life to make it dark once again ..

i felt the pang of humiliation .. but still the dawn will be there .. and i know that it is going to come in near future...and lots of people i met are helping me to come out of the darkness and see the beautiful world once again....

nice to get a mail from my fren .. who is been a great inspiration for me .. and i thought i would rather live to make my day ..at times when i feel low ..i will sum up my darkness to find a little light to drive me out of this ... this hell i am going through ..

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The web cyber world has made my loneliness disappear for some extent .. as far as i would say i used to get lost in this virtual world for good .. at least i can have to thing to get my brain occupied which is providing me and my brain with some nourishment to keep it fit .. alas i would have gone nuts way back....HOLA...life goes on ..

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As i start to get along with this darkness in my life and start seeing people in agony and pain is making me more stronger to fight for the freedom and peace of mind...
But sad to find out that noone is contended with what one has .. always looking for more .. the hunger for more never dies... and will never die.. until you rest in peace .. i happen to love my life more than i used to, trying to end this for ever....

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Now the light i see , now the light i see

The dawn of my life is near .. the pitfall and dark dungeon is being filled up to make my life sprout out in the warmth of the daylight.

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After ....darkness

It was nice to be with frens who cares and be with you to share your pain and joy.

i have been lonely for quite some time but the merry making and fun loving frens took all my sorrows and made me forget my pass..

i have not boozed for quite some time ..

but guys happen to make it a celebration after the mothers day .. we had a little time for ourselves enjoying the brisk air with some drinks and puffs .. enjoyed the food...

though after that we were in such a mood and went for the joy ride ..with the music so loud we can hardly hear talking ...

it was just mumbling and we had our turns to tell the stroy ..huh the story ... [untold and unrevieled..]

then the beach with the sound of waves and water hitting the shore could make you feel the air of sea with the rise in tide....

it was really late or should i say really very early to be in the beach...

till 5 in the morning we are enjoying the thrusday nite out (friday morning he he he)

got back to room .. couldnot sleep .. the drink have left its effect and thought some good things been wasted ..

with this feeling i plan to make the use of this simply wasted thing to make someones life easier or better ..

learned the lesson ..

struggle struggle struggle.. till you die in peace .. not peace i guess it will in pieces .. bits .. but still live the life and make it better......................................

Its been quite some time i left my hometown for good.. for my own good..

i never thought about others as i was really planning for my future.

.as i was in real shock ..

with the nature of the ones i love and cared for ..

i have been in torture for several years so i thought how much i should take the pain ...

but still i enjoyed the time ...and took it as a new experience which made me more strong to fight for life..

struggle for existance ... a theory we read years back ..
as i recalled has made me think that i have to put my energy and experience in the right path to relieve lots from the pain forgetting my own.. as did by the learned people...

any way time heals all wonds and people you come across due course of your life journey makes a lot of difference ..

now as i have doing fine and getting relieved with the pains i carry .. i came across fren who is going through the process of getting hurt as i would put it .. his agony is such i cannot see it any more ..

i don't know how the society will consider his case ...

but as of me i loved to see him in joy....

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things change more quickly than you can think of .. i have learned lots of thing but still the peoples mind is something of great value to everyone to understand ..

i like to end my blog here for today and would like thank blog to give some peace mind to sleep well....

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YEAR 2007....

YOU KNOW YOU ARE LIVING IN 2007 when...
1. You accidentally enter your password on the microwave.

2. You haven't played Solitaire with real cards in years.

3. You have a list of 15 phone numbers to reach your family of 3.

4. You e-mail the person who works at the desk next to you.

5. Your reason for not staying in touch with friends and family is that they don't have e-mail addresses.

6. You pull up in your own driveway and use your cell phone to see if anyone is home to help you carry in the groceries.

7. Every commercial on television has a web site at the bottom of the screen.

8. Leaving the house without your cell phone, which you didn't have the first 20 or 30 (or 60) years of your life, is now a cause for panic and you turn around to go and get it.

10. You get up in the morning and go on line before getting your coffee.

11. You start tilting your head sideways to smile : )

12 You're reading this and nodding and laughing.

13. Even worse, you know exactly to whom you are going to forward this message.

14. You are too busy to notice there was no #9 on this list.

15. You actually scrolled back up to check that there wasn't Num 9 on this list

Mothers Day

I was in the real joy of life .. having fun with frens and doing good..

but times come when you feel really lonely and feels home sick.

Yesterday was mothers day in nepal and i was only here for 4 months and the parting from family is so grave that i couldnot cope with the situation i am feeling for ...


any way time heal everything... i am feeling good and refreshed.....

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huh but i know and understood that the life must go on . and i found an inspirational note ..

as i was not pessimist .. i have been rearing this up and making my life even better than that of the times i have been going through..

Freinds .. True friends whom i used to trust have put in the horns of dilemma now and i guess it is the wheel of life..

but i am encouraged to start my blog once again and publish all my works .. even anything i write .. i write for myself .. what the heck if the world knows...

even the president of US cannot escape.. hehe..

This fren of mine have boost my morale to make my will even stronger..

wish i could thank her personally...

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truth and honesty is still alive

its been a great lapse of time since i left my belief in the honesty.....

i have learned there is no morale left in human ..

i have seen how people cheat others to make the best for them .. they even don't feel the love of their kids to sell them for the slavery.

Its the condition of lots of countries.. any place any tradition any culture .. the hunger for the comfort and stability .. has made humans ... devil of all times..

i have tried to run away from society create my own .. but seems like the human will never leave you live in peace not even in your grave... .. huh ??? even the grave is dug to take some advantage out of it..

but after a long lapse of time my belief has come to life that .. no idea of how the third world war be fought but the fourth will be with stones and sticks...

as time passes by the powerful ones will make the weaker suffer and use for their own interest.

it is same in the animal kingdom.. i wish i was some kinda floara and fauna .. where i would lay still and enjoy the nature .. but still the risk of being ... slautered.. for the need of animal.... i will never find a place to hide away.... but searching one to be in peace for ever.

But here in the desert i saw the florish of concrete world being raised .. no wonder about that .. it is still a land but not firm .....

amazed to see the land being created on water... lots of land being washed away to sea ... but humans are so creative to create a land in the water... the palm island ... a magnificiant place to be ............

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apart from all these i was killing time enjoying simple and trying to mock around to make myself happy to live a lively and joyous life.. ha ha ..

as time and tide waits noone .. i was left alone to suffer .. but i found i am not alone ..

there are people who ... suffer more than me .. who are still trying to come back with big scaar...

wish them all the best to make this world a better place to dwell...

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Managers... huh ... ...

Takeaway: From the wilds of the IT jungles, TechRepublic columnist Jeff Dray documents the 10 most dangerous species of IT manager. Find out if you or your manager fit into the genus he describes.

My present manager is a true gentleman in every sense of the word and even buys me breakfast on occasion. However, in my travels through the wilds of the information technology field, I have come across many different species of IT manager. All are from the genus 'Procurator' and are very dangerous in captivity. Some are now on the World Wildlife Federation's At Risk Register. However, there will certainly be no captive breeding program to preserve them as most would be overjoyed if they disappeared from the Earth.

To help classify these dangerous breeds, I've created the following list of species and character descriptions of some common types of managers. These types are loosely based on some managers I have worked for over the years. As ever, this classification should be taken with a large pinch of salt.

Species one: Procurator Martyrus

Also known as: The "Anything for the good of the company" Manager

This species has a distinctive cry that sounds like this:

"Look at me! I worked Christmas day and even when I had cholera. I walked to the office for six weeks after my car crash, even though both my legs were broken. Why can't you stay another hour each night without pay? I would."

Yes, the office martyr has finally made it to the top, probably because it's the only place where he can't do any harm.

There is a tradition in the British Civil Service of promoting those workers whose incompetence seriously affects the performance of a department. Many such appointees are members of the P. Martyrus group.

P. Martyrus is closely related to the next species, Procurator IlligitimusMaximus.

Species two: Procurator IlligitimusMaximus

Also known as: The Mean and Nasty Manager

This manager is of the old school, a right scoundrel. His idea of being a good manager is to be unapproachable or, in his words, "hard but fair." He is neither. He got his present position by hanging on to the coattails of his manager until retirement, or a nasty accident left the position open. Thankfully this is now a severely endangered species.

After sacking a member of the team, he might be heard to say: "I had to let him go; he wasn't showing the right level of commitment. He preferred to go to his mother's funeral rather than come to work. What do they think we're running here? A holiday camp?"

He will turn to the shocked and silenced office and shout: "Anyone else here got any doubts about their loyalty?"

The problem with IlligitimusMaximus is that one day he will make a mistake himself. When he looks to the team to help him out of his difficulty, they will remember past actions and develop a selective deafness to his pleas. His is a lonely path, and for him there is no safe haven.

Species three: Procurator Teflonius

Also known as: The Non-stick Manager

United Kingdom Prime Minister Tony Blair is frequently referred to as "Teflon Tony" because nothing sticks to him. He represents probably the highest evolution of Teflonius ever observed on the planet. Sadly, because of their excellent stealth characteristics, this species is likely to be around in prolific numbers for the foreseeable future.

This species has sloping shoulders from which any blame will easily slide. She will not give a straight answer to a straight question, just in case you might quote her at the court martial. Whenever something goes wrong, she will produce documentary evidence that she was somewhere else at the time. She is more of a nuisance and a waste of salary than a danger, unless you happen to be the victim of one of her decisions. It is always a good idea to make clandestine recordings of any meetings with a P. Teflonius.

Species four: Procurator Absentia

Also known as: The Missing link, or "What Manager?"

They seek him here, they seek him there,

Those workers seek him everywhere.

This manager is critically endangered. When a company is looking to make cuts, they save more money by sacking this type of manager than a front line worker. And as a bonus, they don't lose as much from the skill base.

Let me give you a real-world example of my encounter with this species: Many years ago, I worked for a very pleasant young manager called Tim, who was in charge of two teams, both in different buildings. He would call in to see us�a small team of three people�and tell us that he would be spending the day with the other team, which was having problems. Apparently, we were reliable and could be trusted to get the work done, whereas the others were an incompetent bunch who needed constant supervision.

Imagine our surprise the day we called the other office to speak to him on an urgent matter only to be told that he was with us because we were incompetent and needed to have constant supervision. This was before the days of mobile phones, so the game was up. He was, it seemed, happy to leave both teams and pass his days playing golf. Sorry Tim, if you ever read this, we knew all the time!

Species five: Procurator Insignia

Also known as: The Flashy Brass

This manager has a sign on his desk or office door, a badge or some similar marking of rank. If he thought he could get away with it, he would wear pips on his shoulders or gold bands around his jacket cuffs. He will take outrageous liberties, like instructing a junior member of staff to wash his car or go out to collect his dry cleaning. When you question this, he will point to this mark of office and say the immortal four words: "THIS says I can."

This species is universally ignored by "his staff," as he likes to call them. As with IlligitimusMaximus, he will receive no help if he screws up. The main difference is that Insignia can be an amusing figure to mock.

Species six: Procurator Headinsandia

Also known as: The "I don't want to hear it" Manager

Yes, one type from my original list of 10 most dangerous types of help desk callers has made it to this list. Perhaps the help desk caller is, in fact, the manager of the same type or maybe the help desk caller mutates into this type of manager when he or she reaches the appropriate level.

P. Headinsandia is probably the manager of a department near you. When the team gives an honest answer to an honest question about the timescale of a project, she will throw up her hands in horror and give the cry that clearly identifies the species. In fairness, this manager takes the cares of the world on her shoulders and worries about them. She lies awake at night fretting about delivering the monthly reports on time. She presents herself as a tough, go-getter, but is often covering an inadequacy. Be gentle with this species, but most of all ignore this type of manager. It's easier that way.

Species seven: Procurator Buzzwordia

Also known as: The Buzzword Manager

Often found, after a long search, in deep water wearing the latest Ralph Lauren concrete collection, Buzzwordia manages by use of a string of clich�s and ideas that he heard at management seminars. Meetings with him are not for the weak-stomached, and it is advisable to keep a bucket handy, just in case.

Think about the last person you heard say:

• "There's no 'I' in team."
• "Assume makes an ASS out of U and ME."
• �I can�t spell success without U.�
• "I want us to be Proactive, not Reactive." (Of course, in this context, 'Us' means 'You.')

Despite the extreme reaction this species can cause, they are mostly harmless. They are prolific in Northern Europe, returning to breed in sheltered colonies in suburban areas of minor towns. Offspring usually opt not to work in management but may become social workers or violent criminals. When this happens, they are usually deemed to be 'misunderstood.'

Species eight: Procurator Amicus Potissimus

Also known as: The Best Mate

This is a well-padded, red-faced manager, given to back-slapping and calling in favors, even before any are owed. He makes unreasonable demands in the name of friendship and invites you to his children's birthday parties, even though you can't stand kids unless they have been barbecued.

Amicus Potissimus tends to overuse first names even when not appropriate. Still it is quite hard to be rude to them. This species makes you want to slit your throat as they ramble on about the fantastic time they had on their last sales seminar or golf tournament. Although it is clear to anyone around you that you'd rather be boiling in oil, the Best Mate assumes that you share his interests.

Species nine: Procurator Impatiens

Also known as: The Two-Minute Manager

This is the type of manager who asks for an update on what has been done during her absence, then abruptly cuts off the answer after two minutes with a cry of "I don't have time now. I want a report on my desk first thing Monday morning."

Although she always does this at 5 p.m. on a Friday, there is no need to worry. She will seldom remember that she has asked for it.

She is closely related to P. Headinsandia and likes to give the impression that she is too busy and important to bother with details. She's very good at delegating tasks, mainly because she doesn't have a clue how to do them herself. P. Impatiens is not a very good person to work for, as your needs will never be recognized or satisfied. The good news is that she's usually the first to go in a round of downsizing.

Species 10: Procurator Condescendia

Also known as: The Patronizing Manager

Nobody can do it quite like P. Condescendia. He was there when they landed on the moon. In fact, he designed and built the entire communications system. He also cabled Canary Wharf using only a pair of pliers, a cotton bud, and a cocktail stick. He won the Paris to Dakar rally in a car he built himself from old beer cans. He caught the biggest fish, had the best golf handicap, and is, of course, a close personal friend of the Managing Director.

We underlings are all very well, but we needed his supreme holiness and guidance to see us through even the simplest task. The trouble is that his intervention nearly always leads to problems. It can be really hard to find hard disk jumpers with the head of Condescendia bobbing in front of the light continually.

The simple way to deflate this species is to ask, in all innocence, why, if they are so talented, are they working for a tuppenny-ha'penny outfit like yours? Rally driving golf pros had far better earning potential than a junior manager in Grot-Com.

From the article found in
http://articles.techrepublic.com.com/5100-10878_11-5300291.html?tag=nl.e138

The hot wave started......................

After a long time of cool and nice weather in Dubai ..

The hot and arid weather have started ..............

It is nice and warm in the morning but the afternoon is getting much hot and the humidity makes you sweat like hell...

i guess ktm was very much out of diverse weather..
but i liked that ..

lost in the desert

Its been quite a long time i have in the desert and the time has come to find my way out of these deserts and would like to make my way .....
Yes that's true i have been struggling to surface ..
the more i try more i go deep into the shit :(

yes this is the hell and you love to be the part of it........

even you don't like it, seems like you are stuck with it
and really it is such that you are sucked into that you never will look back
and go ahead with the life
you are making yourself miserable..

but still the livelyhood of the present moment is what you look for .. each morning you make a resolution to go ahead for the new begining and .........

by the end of the day you are still there where you wanted to start ..

its all the same .. day after day..

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i have been doing some research on the part but i have been making the fun of myself..
still i have been enjoying to do new stuff....

any way .. its the reality.. :D

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created a space in provided by micro$oft http://chautarima.spaces.live.com and busy to put some photos ..... but still more have to be done for the time.

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